Mar. 9th, 2009

rachelbegins: (brendon singing)
It's been one of those days.

I don't want to bother re-hashing it here, but if you're interested, it's all in my Tumblr




you don’t always notice it right away
but part of its beauty is that you don’t
always have to.  love will stick around
long after you tell it to leave, and
promise you only things it can keep.

Three cheers for random bad poetry!  God.  Part of me just wants to cry for no reason.  I have amazing people in my life, and all the people who have brought me down are out of my life for good.  I have my college life set, and my future has never looked so bright…  So what’s holding me back?

I know what it’s like to be perfectly, indulgently happy.  Every individual piece of my life is perfect so why is it that, when I put them all together, all I get is a mess? I mean, it’s car a crash.  Passengers sustained minor injuries, but the driver is in intensive care.

Sometimes I think I’d be happier in a hospital bed.

xxoo
rachel
 


 

rachelbegins: (Default)
 
I've been meaning to write a fic about that song for years.  Don't know why I've never gotten around to it.  Right now, I have about 5 fics waiting paitently for me to finish them and I keep taking advantage of their willingness to wait.  [Why can't I ever 'talk' like a normal person?  I mean really.].

Sometimes, I read those 21,000 word fics that get like, 65 comments and I wonder what it is about them that attracts everyone.  It's not that they aren't very well written because they are, it's just that.  What is it about my fic that makes people skip over it most of the time?  Seriously.  Those fics are all about the same thing, about Ryan and Brendon being witty fail-boats that manage to fall in love.    It's the same dialogue, in different orders.  [livejournal.com profile] lolab is pretty much the only exception to this rule.

I want people to read my fic and appreciate the words,  but no one seems to love them quite the way I do.  Story of my life.

I need to put up my song rec of the day for Tumblr and I need to finish printing out pictures for my senior slideshow.  High school is crap, I cannot wait to finally get out.

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